A video of our girlies. If you aren't family, this will prob be a bit lengthy, but I love it :) (For fun, reference back to the "Noelle 'talks'" post in May, 2009. They are almost exactly the same age)

3 Months Already!!

At the parade :) I love this picture. It looks like she's dancing at her own little private party in her stroller.

We had a little photo shoot at Grandma's house with our new camera!!

My goodness where has the time gone?! Our sweet little ladybug turned 3 months old on Thursday. She is such a joy to have in our family! It is so fun to watch her grow and change :) She is still quite big; she is very long for a 3 month old! With her size (she is wearing 6 month clothing) and her hair she looks like she should be crawling around already! She's not quite to that yet ;) But she does love to "talk" to anyone who will listen. She also loves blowing raspberries still, and she is starting to use her little abdominal muscles to try and sit up. She hates being on her tummy, but has started making little side-to-side roll-y movements when she is laying down. She loves to kick her legs like crazy, just like Noelle did. Today she actually was scooting herself around a bit from the intensity of the kicking :) She is still as smiley and happy as can be, we love her so dearly. She also still wants to eat every 3 hours, night or day :( This makes for one tired mommy, but she is just so cute I can't really be upset about it. She loves watching all the things Noelle does, and she also loves watching mommy cook or bake in the kitchen. She also loves to buddy up with her daddy and look out at the world from the height of his arms. She really is our little sunshine!

Heartbreak

Yesterday a friend of mine on facebook posted a link to a blog. It was about a family whose baby girl was in the final stages of liver failure. She was diagnosed with liver failure at 3 months, and just turned 7 months. She'd been fighting for 4 long months. Her skin was completely discolored from so little liver function. Her belly was huge and distended from swelling and an enlarged liver. But in the before pics, she reminded me a lot of Soleil.
When I went to bed last night, the latest news was that there might be a donor match for her. I prayed so hard all night. I knew that Heavenly Father had a plan for her, but I just wanted so badly for that plan to be the healing of this sweet baby girl. However, this afternoon I found out that she passed away overnight. This family is completely unknown to me; I am a complete stranger to them. But I think my heart broke into a million pieces for them. It just feels absolutely devastating. Sometimes matters of the heart just make no logical sense I guess.
I think part of the reason is that I know I will be losing loved ones soon. My Grandpa Williams was just diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer and is not expected to survive to Christmas. My Grandpa Gau's health has been failing steadily for a couple years, and it seems like his time is not far away either. I have never lost someone I was very close to before. Both of these men are enormously important to me. I am not ready for either of them to be gone.
I think another reason is that this little baby girl reminds me a lot of Soleil. Just in her smile and the little personality that seems to radiate through her pictures. She just is adorable. And, of course, there's the fact that, as a mother, I think I would die if I ever lost one of my children. I can't imagine it.
I have read several stories recently that have been similar to this. But this one in particular has quite shaken me up. Oh my heart is breaking for this family. If you have time, and a lot of tissues, here is the link to their blog. Start in May and go from there.